I may sound like a baby but it helps
self harm scars: blade, scratching.
burn: fag butts
childhood memories: did not want to do all of them but I put my head as it messed up my head pretty bad.
surgery: Fell over on glass and had to get it out by surgery. That hurt.
Animal: My old puppy scratched my foot and left scars there.
Is that too much to ask?
I do to sweet girl, I wish I could do it all again but then I never would of meet you!
I am so fed up of hiding how I feel all the time! I have had enough of pretending to everyone… People want to know the truth why I was never at school or missing lessons because when you was in English or maths I was either in VSR or in the toilets slicing up my arms and legs. At lunch when I always ran of to the bathroom its because my anxiety was so high that I need to cut to help for 5 minutes or it was because I was disgusted of what I ate I needed to make my self puke it up. When I said I ‘went on hoilday’ for 2 weeks I was in mental hospital because I want to end my pain. I have PTSD and when people sit there and make fun of that or self harm… it fucking hurts because that’s what I do to live! Some people may think this is for ‘attention’ well you know what you think that because I am sure thats how low I would go for it nothing to do with my past at all… no one hurts themselves for attention! I have to live with flashbacks and voices everyday and at night I dont even get a break because of nightmare. If you want to delete me if your going to give me crap about this because you know what its non of your bussiness! fuck you!
| Me: | Please don't go to work to night. |
| Mum: | I have to its £150 just for this night. |
| Me in my head: | £150 or your daughter's life? |
| Me: | Yeah, I know. |
| I never ask her to stay home unless I need her. |
I miss her
This goes out to the amazing AJ
(Source: staypozitive, via dont-let-anyone-destroy-you)
